I got stuck! I didn't want to stay stuck for long. I helped myself get un-stuck. It wasn't the lupus.
I guess I’m just going to do. Stop thinking about it and do.
I told myself I was going to remember the way that I felt. I remember taking a moment to really embrace the crapola that was my health and promised myself that " things" were going to change. That I needed that experience to help facilitate some kind of change. I was going to use it as a wake-up call.